I am a writing machine

First off, if you’re waiting for correspondence from me, many apologies. It’s going to be another day or so before I can start going through my overflowing inbasket.

Yesterday, all I did was write, eat, and sleep. And I took most of my meals up to the library with me so I could keep working while I ate. Today, I am dazed and exhilarated, anxious and thrilled. The story in my head is on the page, zero draft complete. While I was writing it, it was more real to me than my surroundings. Library and laptop disappeared and I heard my characters speak to me, felt their emotions and desires as they lived in the world I had created for them. Yes, I know I sound as ridiculous as the worst angsty goth poet with a glass of merlot. But this is what I yearn for as a writer, what I strain and stress and struggle to achieve.

Also, I’m a little lightheaded. I didn’t get a lot of sleep. I tapped out “The End” at 2AM and woke up at 6AM to start my first editing pass.

New words: 6700 on “Beauty’s Folly” (I even came up with a title!)
This may be a new word count record for me. I made a bouncing, baby novelette in three days. Although I am somewhat terrified that mroctober is going to want to throttle me.

Editing now, since I didn’t do any while the story was coming out. There’s going to be cutting–I’ve already chopped out 500 words in my initial half-pass this morning. I had to stop when Hobkin told me in no uncertain terms that it was mealtime NOW. But I’m pleasantly surprised at how well the story’s reading. Normally at this stage, I would expect much gnashing of teeth as paragraphs and scenes went flying to the eternal void of DELETE. ‘Course I haven’t hit the 6K I did yesterday. Odds are it will start getting ugly soon.

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Chocolate Factories, Johnny Depp, Tim Burton

Watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, the Tim Burton/Johnny Depp remake.

Pros: Tim Burton always makes beautiful movies. He has a definite style that is otherworldly and lush, no matter what the subject matter. Johnny Depp plays a very funny psychotic candy maker and has some really excellent lines. The parts of the movie where they stayed relatively faithful to the first movie were well done and amusing

Cons: The end. They added moralizing and a truly unnecessary theme to the second half–both tedious and out of character for the movie. As a result, the whole thing fails.
   


Writing Stuff

Some distressing Tangent events have come up. Nothing earth shattering, but several things all at the same time which altogether leave me feeling bummed and disheartened. I find myself doing the procrastination dance, which is my usual reaction to events that make me unhappy. But I suppose letting my editorial duties slide for a day or two won’t hurt anything. Besides, I’m writing!

Actually, I’ve let all of my correspondences slide these last couple days. So if you’re expecting an email from me and haven’t heard back, that’s why. I shall be playing catch-up after I finish this story.

New Words: 3000 on the as-of-yet-untitled Beauty and the Beast tale.
Doubtless there will need to be some intensive cutting as I haven’t gone back and done much in the way of editing. The story plays in my head, the words come, and I release them onto the screen. Happy writer. Not necessarily good writer, but happy.

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Trying something new

Tapering from 40 to 20mg of Prozac this week in preparation for the start of Effexor. Had a mild headache yesterday, but I’m not willing to attribute that (just yet) to the decrease. After the comments I got yesterday about Effexor, I’m thinking that it might behoove me to modify my p-doc’s suggested incremental rate, perhaps give myself two weeks at each dosage tier instead of one, see if I notice any unpleasant or dramatic effects from it. Despite what all this juggling of meds might indicate, I’m really not severely depressed. I do get periodic mood drops, but I’ve both seen and studied severe depression, and while I can feel pretty blue upon occasion, it’s relatively mild on the depression spectrum. Yes, I’m tired all the time, but considering the dilapidated state of my human suit, it’s really not surprising. So I’m concerned about an overkill situation arising from the attempted treatment of my minor mental disequilibrium–like administering Lasix to someone with a chest cold. All I can say is I’m very glad I have a solid background understanding of Psychology.

   


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Going to try something during this NaNoWriMo season. Since everyone else is pumping out words, I thought I’d take this opportunity to work myself back into professional-caliber productivity. Therefore, I’m locking myself in the library, away from television, skunk, and husband during the day. I’m also going to curtail my LJ time, so if I make fewer appearances in y’alls comment sections, don’t take it personally. Writer at work and all.

Received:
– 10-day personal rejection from Jason Sizemore at Apex Digest with invite to submit again.
– Also news that Jason has nominated by story “Oranges, Lemons, and Thou Beside Me” (slated for publication in Apex #4) for a Pushcart! I think it’s terribly unlikely I’ll be one of the selected, but I’m floating on a happy cloud to be nominated. Jason absolutely rawketh! Squee!

New Words:
2000 on another fairy tale re-telling, this time of Beauty and the Beast. After editorial feedback and discussion, the determination was that “The Better To . . . ” was one for the the “still needs work” pile, and instead of facing another rewrite with it (I cannot express how very sick I am of it at this point), I decided to pull out the ole drawing board. So far, this one’s going so much smoother. Or maybe it’s me being holed away in the library.

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Adventures with Adderall . . . and Effexor

Had my p-doc follow-up this morning. Initially, he suggested I increase my dosage of Adderall to 25mg/day, but after more discussion, we decided not to. When I asked him what his long-term thoughts were with regard to Adderall, that I didn’t want to be on an amphetamine for an extended time–and what about Provigil?–he said that he was hoping to wait until Provigil got added to my HMO’s approved list before switching me over. That made sense to me, so I’m content to stay with the Adderall for another month or two (or three even) until the HMO Powers That Be grind their gears. I’ll continue on 20mg/day, taking periodic day-or-two breaks once a week to keep my tolerance from ratcheting up.

He also suggested I try an NRI, Wellbutrin, in conjunction with the Prozac for an added pick-me-up. But the idea of adding more pills to my daily cocktail did not please me, so we’re compromising. I’m going to wean off the Prozac this week, and then switch to Effexor XR, which is both an NRI and an SSRI. Starting the Effexor at 37.5mg/day next week, and then the plan is to increase that weekly until I hit 150mg/day.

Fun with psychotropics. So not whee.

   


Writing Stuff

Received:
– Contract and final edits from Aberrant Dreams for “The Son that Pain Made.” Everything looks great and the contract’s signed and in the mail.
– 41-day “regret that we cannot use it” from Pedestal with invite to submit again.
– 14-day “Dear Author” (ouch) from LCRW.

I think I’ve noticed an odd trend with my writing. Genre markets with literary penchants don’t seem to like me. But literary publications that are receptive to genre do. I’m so confused.

New Words:
1000 words on the funny little story, and it’s at zero draft. That was gratifyingly fast. Nice muse, nice word flow. Maybe it’s all the NaNoWriMo energy radiating off my flist rubbing off.

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Adventures with Adderall

A couple hours after taking my normal 20Mg of Adderall yesterday, I was still feeling logy. Some back and forth waffling resulted in me popping another 10Mg capsule. An hour later, I didn’t think I’d gotten much of an effect, but then I sat down to write. Huge surge in productivity. So, yay. But less than happy about the apparent increase in tolerance. Haven’t taken any Adderall today. Debating whether I want to let my system dry out for a day or two. Have my p-doc follow-up tomorrow to touch base and discuss.

   


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Got an email from the editor of Aberrant Dreams. They want me to do a signing in January at Oxford Comics and Games (2855 Piedmont Rd NE; Atlanta, GA 30305-2767). The tentative date is Jan. 11th (a Wednesday). Watch this space for more details as I get them.

New Words:
2300 on the funny little story idea that fosteronfilm and I came up with a week and a half ago. This tale was just tugging and tugging at me, begging to be written. It’s approximately a scene or two shy of zero draft.

Also plugged 700 or so words into “Rue and Ruin.”

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
5,885 / 7,500
(78.5%)

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Boycott Target

I don’t usually go into political diatribes here. I find the sorts of political arguments that one gets into on the Internet tedious. But I’m making a rare exception here, because it’s something I feel strongly about. I’m shaking out the ole boycott rug to protest pharmacists that refuse to fill contraception prescriptions. The idea of someone, anyone at all, mucking with my or any woman’s decisions about her body and her life gets me spitting mad. As such, Target will no longer be receiving my consumer dollars until they revamp their policies since apparently, Target is A-OK with their pharmacists being righteous misogynists.

For more links and rants, check out wicked_wish‘s information-filled post and jinzi‘s very eloquent letter of protest.

   


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New Words: 600
Back to work on the heroic fantasy tale, “Rue and Ruin.”

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
5,155 / 7,500
(68.7%)

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Back into the swing of things

dude_the flew back to the Midwest yesterday (flappity flap). The house is back to being two humans and a skunk, and the temperature has dropped to two-blankets-a-sweater-and-a-robe-and-I’m-still-cold degrees. Brrr.

Went out to see an advance screening of Zathura. It was fun, but in an utterly predictable way. Written by the same guy who did Jumanji, it showed. Pretty much the exact same story but with a science fiction setting instead of a fantasy one. Next up, a movie about some kids who find an old, horror-themed games and wacky hyjinks ensue . . .

   


Writing Stuff

Received:
302-day YFoP from Realms of Fantasy.
35-day personal pass from Fictitious Force (after query) with invite to submit again.

Both stories made it past the first round of readings, but tanked in the money round. Well, foo.

Ran stats on the crits for “The Better To . . .” There were two or three amazingly glaring issues that people kept commenting on. Isolated and destroyed (I hope) those in a pair of very thorough editing passes. Going to give it another couple read-throughs, but the goal is to stick the fork in and send it out today. Or maybe tomorrow.

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Post-Halloween recovery

Had a delightful, if low-key, Halloween. fosteronfilm, dude_the, and I stayed in, watched appropriately ghoulish movies, and handed out candy to the kiddies. The line-up included Trancers, Hellboy, and Beetlejuice. The boys watched more than that, but I conked out pretty early and slept through the other selections. I was so very tired yesterday. I think the Adderall is losing its effectiveness with me again. Got a follow-up with my p-doc next week to discuss options. ‘Course, now I’m wide awake and everyone else, including Hobkin who is cuddled up at my side, is asleep.

In other news, I did not make the cut as one of the 12 Babes of Christmas, alas. But it was fun, an honor being nominated, blah blah blah. Thank you very much to everyone who voted for me. Y’all are the greatest.

   


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Oops. I forgot to mention that over the weekend my tentative sale to Aberrant Dreams did indeed become a definite one. I sold them “The Son that Pain Made” on Saturday. It’s slated to be published in their January issue. Huzzah!

Happy Halloween!

Had a lovely Halloween weekend. The weather has been perfect for hot tubbing, and we’ve been catching up with dean13 and dude_the, and showing them appropriately Halloweeny films.

Saturday we had our annual Foster Halloween costumed movie extravaganza get together. After much debate and discussion, followed by a vote, we decided to watch Underworld. (The runner-up was I Walked With a Zombie.)


dude_the (left) and dean13, perhaps about to burst into song?

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